Progress!

Sometimes I feel like I'm still stuck in the rut of weight loss. Like I'm doing okay but not seeing results.  Even though I don't feel like I've lost much, I know that my clothes are fitting better and I'm feeling better. So, Friday, I decided it was time for an updated photo. I don't know about you, but I need a good visual sometimes. It's like I need proof that something's really happening. And I'll let you be the judge...

A very nice, not-so flattering front shot.

The side shot, which I think is always more telling.

The verdict?

DANG.  My jaw literally dropped when I uploaded the new pictures. Literally. Like I-have-to-show-someone-NOW awesome. I couldn't believe it!!

Even though I actually gained a pound this week (I don't want to talk about it...), I've lost 10 overall. 10 pounds in roughly 2 months. That's 5 pounds a month, and about 1 pound a week. Holy. Cow.

How is this possible? Honestly? It's all God's doing. I haven't changed much about my diet...except that I'm trying my absolute hardest not to overeat and to rely on God. I still eat many of the same foods I did before. I just don't stuff myself with them [all the time]. I admit that I have moments where I give in and eat something I shouldn't or too much of something. I'm only human. BUT, I am trying. 

I'm working out more than I did before. Still usually 3-4 days a week. Lately I've been slacking on the workouts because my asthma is giving me trouble. Actually, it's Hawaii that's causing the problems. Vog {volcanic fog/haze/ash junk} has been in full force lately, thanks to the winds coming from the Big Island. It's tough to breathe through and makes me more likely to have an attack, even with the meds I'm taking. Anyway, long story short, it affects my ability to workout. I've been sticking with Pilates, but not much extra cardio is happening. 

I'm still doing Bible Study daily. Or trying to do it daily. I admit that I sometimes fail at that, too. It's hard! Especially with a baby going through a growth spurt and needing Mommy more often than usual.  I haven't picked up Made to Crave in a while, either. I should probably get on that.

See, the thing is... I'm not perfect. I know, newsflash. I'm not perfect. I can't do it all. I can't lose weight and kick overeating on my own. But God can do it in and through me. And that's what I'm trying to do - let Him work in me, so that He can use me to do...other things, whatever He wants me to do. It's not about the weight loss {although that's a great perk!}, working out, or following a specific diet plan. It's about God and what He's doing. I know without a doubt that I wouldn't have lost 10 pounds and curbed my eating habits if it weren't for Him and my "sisters" keeping me accountable. 

So that's it. My awesome, awesome news and progress. And I'm going to try my absolute hardest not to gain any weight while we're in NC for Christmas.... It's gonna be tough.

Not JUST Weight Loss

Several weeks ago I posted about a 5 week challenge I was doing. The challenge was not just to start exercising and eating better, but to be "active" in reading (and memorizing and meditating on) God's Word. It was exactly the kick-start I needed. 

I'd been stuck in a rut for far too long.... Eating what I wanted, when I wanted and how much I wanted. It wasn't a good thing, even though eating all those good things sure was (and is!) nice. Even though I was exclusively breastfeeding (up until the 1st of October, anyway), my weight wasn't coming off. But it's hard to expect to lose when you don't exercise and don't have some sort of control over what you eat! I knew I needed to do something, but I couldn't (and can't) make the change on my own. It's too easy to say, "I'll try again Monday" or "Maybe when Charlotte's doing ___ I'll try" or "I just don't feel like it." A true procrastinator can find any excuse to avoid doing something. 

Thanks to my bestie and my fabulous SIL, we've worked together on this challenge. The challenge has already ended, but we're still keeping each other accountable. We check in on FB daily. We talk about our struggles, our victories, what encourages us and what convicts us. It's a pretty awesome system, especially when you factor in the fact that we each live in a different state and time zone. Obviously I'm the furthest one out, but it's still pretty darn awesome. With their accountability and my Bible studies, I've been able to do a lot. I'm on my way to a total lifestyle change, and I'm already seeing some of the benefits.

This is me when I started the 5 week challenge, weighing *gulp* 160lbs. {I can't even believe I just put this number on my blog...}

And this is me just a few days ago...weighing 151.5lbs. Yes, I lost 8.5 pounds in 5 weeks!

I know the recent photos are more zoomed out, but I didn't realize that until I went to edit them a day later. *sigh* But, seriously... I can't believe how much I've lost in just a short time! I'd love to attribute it to breastfeeding and working out, but that's not the whole story.

So what have I done? I've done a lot, though it may not seem like it. 

Bible study. 

As I said before, I'm on my way to a lifestyle change. And that is thanks to God and God alone. The big game-changer for me is my way of thinking. Not thinking of food as the enemy, but sin and Satan. (Which is actually the truth.) Not thinking of exercising as another chore (although it certainly feels that way sometimes!), but as a way to honor God. And the way I've changed my thinking in these areas is through the Setting the Captives Free study I'm doing, called The Lord's Table. It's a 60 day, very in-depth study on sinful eating habits and how only turning to God can free me from them. Yes, it's true, you can have sinful eating habits. I'm an overeater. I may not look like one, but I am. I want to change that. I want to have a healthy body and I want to not feel overwhelmed by cravings.

I'm also participating in studies done by #SheReadsTruth. I'm not always "attached" to the online community there, but I do participate in their studies online. I love them. It's usually a very great add-on to the Captives Free study. God has a wonderful way of tying them in together when I least expect it.

Exercise

Exercising is part of having a healthy body. I don't believe God ever meant for us to be lying about all day... Or just going about our day not being active. Exercise has always been difficult for me. I have allowed my asthma to be an excuse to not work out in the past. And yeah, some days it keeps me from doing a full workout. I can't use that excuse, though, because I can do something. I'm not an invalid. And I need  to do something. Working out actually helps when I'm doing it consistently. Imagine that. 

I've been doing Lindsay Brin's Postnatal Boot Camp 2-3 days a week. It's a heck of a cardio and toning DVD program with all sorts of different workouts. I'm doing her 12 week program because it's easier than piecing together my own. But seriously, it's hard. It's not Jillian Michaels hard, but it's close. I'm also doing Pilates on the other days. I take 2-3 rest days because, well, I'm not in great shape. Also, I think working out 4 days a week is a feat when you have a 6 month old, laundry, dishes, meals and a husband to take care of.

"Diet"

It's in quotations because I'm not dieting. I'm just changing my outlook on food. The Bible (and God!) specifically says there are no foods I cannot eat. None. But it does say this:

Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial. ~ 1 Corinthians 10:23

So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. ~ 1 Corinthians 10:31

So I'm trying my hardest to only eat when I'm hungry - really hungry. I can convince myself I'm hungry when I'm really not. Like when I'm bored or upset or lonely. It's hard not to eat during those times!! And when I'm "PMSinsg"? OMG is it hard. And when I do eat, I try very hard to only eat until I'm full. Not "I'm going to explode" full, but "Yeah, I think I've had enough" full. Learning the difference can be hard.

Reading

I've started reading the book Made to Crave. I'm only a few chapters in, but I can relate to everything the author talks about. It's refreshing to know I'm not the only one dealing with an addiction to food, giving in to cravings and eating too much during a meal. And it helps to be given ways to understand that we humans were made to crave...but we weren't made to crave food or anything here on earth. God made us to crave Him. He made us to crave a relationship with Him because He's the only one who can really, truly satisfy us and bring meaning to our lives. 

So there it is, folks. My "diet" and weight loss plan. Not much of a diet and not much of a plan, but more of a "this is how I'm doing it." More accurately, this is how God is working in my life. And it's awesome. And hard. And amazing. And hard. Overcoming this, losing weight, and changing my lifestyle isn't easy. But I know - I know - it will be worth it!

Living & Active: Update #2

The end of week 2 and beginning of week 3 doing this Living & Active Challenge. Now that I'm this far in, I have to say that it's been great! The first week was really hard, but I'm finding it much easier to keep up with exercising, eating right and keeping up with my Bible studies. Woo!

Peak 313

Last week, I worked out 4 times and went on a few walks with Charlotte. The exercising I've been doing is Pilates and my Postnatal Boot Camp DVD. I love doing Pilates! The Boot Camp DVD is hard. It's hard for a reason, though, so I'm keeping up with it! I know it's great for me and it's not that long anyway, so I'm keeping up with it. Some days I want to quit right in the middle of it, but I know sticking with it is the best thing for me.

I started having salads for lunch last week, which has helped a ton. I don't have one every day, but I feel like I'm eating healthier by having them more often. I load my salad up with a bunch of veggies (peppers, broccoli, onions, etc.), cut up some deli meat, add some cheese and a little bit of dressing. YUM! It fills me up way more than I thought it would too. I'm also eating oatmeal for breakfast now. This is a big deal since I'm so much of a cereal person. It killed me not to eat it every morning when I was pregnant and had GD. But I'm liking the oatmeal (which I eat with pecans on top =)) more every day! That's really the only thing that's changed. I still make a good dinner for Joe and I and I still have a some sweets after dinner...but not much!

The biggest thing that's changed (and in such a short time!) is my way of thinking. This is mainly due to the Bible studies I'm doing, specifically Setting the Captives Free. I mentioned last week that I've struggled with overeating. I've turned to food to satisfy me instead of turning to God. And when the food didn't satisfy me, I turned to more food. Then I'd feel guilty for eating so much, knowing I should take better care of myself... It's really an endless, evil cycle to get caught up in. And I didn't realize it until I started this study.

Turning to food instead of turning to God is a sin. No matter how you slice it, that's what it is. The longer I'm doing this study, the more I'm able to really see it. No diet can "cure" this or help me get rid of the sin in my life. Sure it can help me change my behavior, but it can't change my heart which is where the real issue lies. Diets and programs (Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, calorie-counting, low-carb, South Beach, etc.) fail because, while they encourage people to change, they can't lead people to God who is the ONLY ONE that can help us and really fill us.

As I read in the study, "There is a [point] when it's time to be done with sin for good. We want to make a full turn away from sinful eating habits and discipline ourselves to eat properly and purposefully." This is where I'm at right now. I fell into a sinful trap because, well, food is good! It tastes great and it satisfies my hunger pangs. But when I'm using it to satisfy my soul... It doesn't work. I'm done with it. I'm ready to put this behind me. I'm ready to eat well and be satisfied by God and what only He can offer.

The result of this is repentance. This means turning away - walking, running away - from my sin and turning to God. I've already been forgiven. All I have to do is claim that forgiveness and live in the freedom it offers me. It's only by God's grace that I can overcome this and live a life that isn't focused on food - what will I eat next? I don't just want to change my behavior for the time being so that I can lose weight. I want a lifestyle - a heart - change. Only God can do that. And He is doing that in my life.

I can already see a huge difference in my life. I'm not planted on the couch, thinking about what I'm going to make for dinner (although I do have to plan for that) or what I'm going to eat for dessert or for a snack. I feel empowered to make good, healthy choices. I feel better after working out than I would if I didn't. {Most days, anyway.} But here's the thing: I'm not doing this. God is. He's working in my life and changing me from the INSIDE out. I can't do this on my own. I'm nothing without Him. I can only do it because He's given me the strength and the grace to do so.

And praise God for the change!!! I'm loving it and I love that I have Anna and Melissa to keep me accountable and to pray for me about anything. I'm also loving that I lost 3 pounds last week! Just one more thing that's changing. =)

Living & Active Update

Last week was my first week of the Living & Active 5 week challenge. If you missed my first post on it, the goal is to work out 4 times a week and keep up with a Bible study. I thought it was going to be really hard, but it went so much better than I thought it would!

Anna, Melissa and I started a private FB group where we can keep each other accountable and pray for each other. It's really great! Every day we post things we found in our Bible study and what we've done to exercise (or not). We talk about our struggles and even other things going on in our lives. I really wish we'd done this sooner! Today, we posted some "before" pictures. I'm going to share mine here because I can use all the extra accountability I can get!

Yup... That's me. 5 months postpartum and still only around 15 pounds down. I feel certain that I gained weight after she was born because I ditched the GD diet. And, well, I really missed ice cream. That's all I'm gonna say about that. Like most women, I really miss my pre-pregnancy body! (Thankful for the baby, but not the extra weight!)

Last week I exercised 4 days! That's a big step for me considering it's been one day here and there for the last 5 months. I did a postpartum bootcamp DVD twice and then one of my favorite pilates videos twice. The bootcamp DVD is HARD! I know it'll be worth it, but some days I just wanna quit right in the middle of it. I've loved pilates for a while, so at least I can actually look forward to that workout.

I'm currently doing TWO Bible studies. This from the girl who has struggled keeping up with one for forever!!! The first one I'm doing is a #SheReadsTruth study. I love those girls, the accountability and the online community! They actually make it fun to do one...which is what I need. =) 

The second one I'm doing is called Setting the Captives Free. It's also an online study, but it's way more in depth and focused on certain sins. Mine, for example, is overeating. Overeating IS a sin because we're replacing a deeper relationship with God with food. Our bodies and souls are meant to crave Him, but we often feed it with food instead. The biggest thing I'm trying to grasp right now is that God doesn't want us to deprive ourselves of any particular foods. He wants us to have it all! He just doesn't want us to overeat or try and replace Him with it. I keep finding myself thinking "no, I can't have that. No, I can't have this." God doesn't want us to follow a diet plan... It's hard to get away from! I keep thinking in calories or carbs when I don't need to! But I do need to really listen to my body and know when I'm actually hungry and not just bored. Food isn't the problem here (or even certain foods); indulging, especially overindulging, IS the problem.

The Bible studies have been really key for me thus far. It's encouraging me and it's teaching me a whole new way of thinking. This is a really good thing. I'm tired of having to follow a certain diet's rules. I'm tired of being told (and believing) that Food X is bad for me. In reality, no food is bad for me! {Unless you have an allergy or medical condition that really keeps you from eating something, of course.}

Even though I'm not losing weight (yet), I'm still really glad I decided to take part in this 5 week challenge. I know that by the end I won't have just done a diet or kept up with a certain routine, I will have a lifestyle change and that is more important than any diet or workout regimen!

Happy Weight Loss?

Even though I didn't want to, I got up this morning and went to the gym. Please don't have a heart attack. I know it's shocking. ;-)

I will admit, though, that it was my darling husband who urged me to go. I got up and had absolutely no desire to put on gym clothes and go. None at all. But he reminded me that I need to go...that it's good for me, blah, blah, blah. ;-) We changed topics eventually, but before he signed off (woah! hello, 90s term!) he told me to work hard at the gym today. *sigh* Now I had to go! So I went. 


The gym on our little housing post/area is kind of small...kind of big. It has locker rooms (duh), a badminton (I had no idea that's how that was spelled. Thanks, spellcheck!) area, a basketball court, weight lifting area and then there are bikes, ellipticals and a few other things upstairs. The "elliptical area" overlooks the basketball court. Not sure what that's all about, but whatever. =P It looks nice and it's clean...that's all that really matters to me. 


I hopped on one of the ellipticals and got to work. For the first 2-3 minutes, I didn't realize that the incline was set to 10!!! I knew I was working awfully hard, but geez! And it had me on some wacko "program." You know, you can choose which workout you want to do and it...does it. All of these freakin' machines are different and it really irks me. Anyway. I finally figured it out and set it to manual. I like to do my own thing, thank you very much. Unfortunately, changing the settings restarts your time. *sigh* So now I had no idea how long I'd been on there (I wasn't paying attention before).


 I guess it worked out though, because I ended up burning 283ish calories in 30 minutes. My heart was seriously pumping. I'm also not sure that I trust the heart rate monitors they put on those machines. At one point, it said my heart rate was over 200. I thought, "Ok. If my heart is beating that fast should I really be able to run or even stand?!" Somehow, I don't think so. I did slow down just in case, though. No heart attack for me, please! At the end of 30 minutes, I had run 2.5ish miles! I'm seriously proud of myself! If only you knew how long it has been since I ran... ;-)


After I went to the museum and "worked" today, I stopped by the PX hoping to pick up a few things for Vday projects/packages. I found nothing I was looking for. Nothing. WalMart has also failed me. I'd like to go to Target, but I don't want to drive that far. I'm thinking I may need to take a trip to Ross. Anyway. The PX. 


I've been really wanting to get a wristlet/small wallet to put all of my crap in while I'm at the gym. You know, so I don't have to take my entire bag in with me. Just something to hold my iPhone, keys and ID. I've looked online and I've even thought of making something. Well, I made my way over to the purse section of the PX. If you know me, you know that this is dangerous. I have a thing for accessories. ;-) I looked at some Coach (if only my budget would allow that!). I looked at some knock off. And then... Oh, and then... I saw a beauty. It was cute, perfect and only $20. If I had purchased something from Etsy, it would have cost $10-$15 plus shipping. Might as well be $20. So, I put it in my little basket and skipped off to get the other things on my list. 

I now own some Vera Bradley!!! I big, pink puffy heart Vera Bradley!!! I really wanted something pink, but they didn't have any and I still think this print is super cute. =)

Keys, phone, earphones, change and cards!

Even better? ID slot on the outside!

Did you really think I'd show you my ID? Psh. ;-)

See?! Perfect!

I may even be using this as my wallet wallet. Usually I carry the "mom wallet" that fits everything from business cards to the checkbook...and a pen. Seriously, it's pretty big. I love it but trying to dig out my military ID is a pain. Half the time, it's floating free in my purse so I can flash it when I go on post or get carded at the PX/Commissary. I need some stability in my life. =P Plus, with my keys attached I'll never lose them! Great solution, I think.

So, is it safe to say that I bought myself a present to 1) celebrate my great workout and 2) encourage me to go back to the gym? I think yes. And I'm ok with that. Let's just hope the hubby is too... Shhh... He doesn't know yet. ;-)

Does Anyone Know What Time It Is?

"Tool Time!" ;-)

Nah, just kidding. Haha!

It's time for another wonderfully random post from yours truly. Aren't you excited?! *pauses to listen* I thought you would be! =D

You will be happy to know (or maybe not, but you should be) that I - Sarah *Insert Last Name Here* - am officially back on the workout train!!!!

[thunderous applause]

After talking to my hubby on Skype this morning and laying on the couch not wanting to do anything, I finally got off my toosh and did something! I put on my newly purchased yoga pants (which are fabulous, in case you were wondering) and got things set up:

Yeah, I totally use my our Xbox to workout. Can you say "Netflix instant?" They don't have a lot of Pilates videos, but I've found a few that are actually pretty decent. Add in my super-cute, hot pink, hawaiian flower-dy mat and how could I not work out? (Don't answer that because I've obviously not been working out for a while...) Unfortunately, the silly thing hadn't been used since Joe went back to the Sandbox so I had to download updates and apparently there was still a DVD in there. =P Finally, I got my video to play and did 30 minutes of Pilates.

Oh man. It was rough. Things I once could do with no problem were suddenly hurting and wearing me out. =( That's what I get from avoiding the mat for so long. Fortunately, the 30 minutes went fairly quick and before I knew it I was stretching my muscles out. Personally, that's my favorite part of the workout. Even though I was dying, I felt amazing afterward! I know it's crazy, but it's true! I would really like to know how that happens. Let's just hope the same thing happens after I hit the gym Wednesday. I'm counting tomorrow as a day off because I have to go to an FRG training thing at 0900. Sarah doesn't get up early, so no workout tomorrow.


I also did really well on calorie counting today! My plan is to do Pilates 2-3 times a week and to hit the gym at least twice a week to run. My knees don't take the pavement very well, so I'll be on the ellipticals.  Anyway, I'm also calorie counting. Want another reason I love my iPhone? ;-) This app:

I used it for a while when I was still living in NC and working out hardcore. You can enter all of  your meals AND workouts in it. (Sex counts too. ;-) I so love that. Though, it's not really that much... Unless you're marathoning it. LOL And obviously, I am doing NONE of that right now... *SIGH*) So, it adds up your calorie intake and subtracts all the calories you burned off. Pilates doesn't burn that many calories, unfortunately, but I use it for the strength training and toning so I'm not worried. I can run off the rest in the gym. Anyway, I stinkin' love this app. You put in your weight, height, age, gender and your goal weight and it gives you "plans" to choose from. I chose to lose 1 lb a week (eating 1298 calories a day) which should put me at my goal weight around 2 weeks before Joe comes back!

I honestly thought I'd be starving... But I'm not. I did really well today, and after I'd eaten dinner I still had 510 calories to go. How did I celebrate? I made chocolate chip cookies and finished off those last calories! Hahaha! Joe thought it was hilarious too. I told him that no one ever said a diet DIDN'T include cookies! Plus, if I don't give myself some sort of chocolate I will not stick to a diet. It just won't happen. I also give myself one day free of calorie counting and exercising a week. I learned this from a super-skinny Marine wife that I worked with at Chili's. I figured if she could stay skinny that way, I could get skinny that way. It's worked pretty well, when I stay on track. =P


Week 1 of Operation: Get Fit is going well so far!

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So, this morning post-workout I took the time to download all the updates my Mac has been yelling at me to do for like 2 weeks. I hate doing them because half the time you either have to be connected to a power source or you have to restart it. *sigh* I'm attached to my computer and, well.... You know how it is, I'm sure. I knew I needed to do it, so I finally let go for a few minutes and did it. Wouldn't you know that I got  a really nice surprise?!

After my computer restarted, I saw this little icon in my dock...and it made me smile. =)

If you have an iPhone, I'm sure this will look familiar to you. All iPhones have the App Store. Recently, Apple launched its Mac App Store. Apps for the Macs! Woooo! I'm already in love. Would you like to see the first one I downloaded?

Twitter, of course!! I have to keep up with all my "Tweeps!" I have it on my phone too, but half the time it alerts my phone before my computer... Which is really frustrating when I'm on the computer. Now this is no longer a problem. I have a live feed that automatically updates itself! No refreshing, no browser necessary. Just an internet connection. Bliss.

Isn't that awesome?! They obviously have a bunch of other apps too. Games, things for businesses, health apps, iCal reminder apps... Pretty much anything you can think of. And just so we're clear here, Apple is NOT paying me to say any of this. I just really love my Mac and feel the need to share the awesomeness that is Apple. 

After owning a Mac for...4ish years now, I no longer understand PC users. At all. And when I'm forced to use a PC - like at the museum - it frustrates me to no. end. PC/Windows/Whatever is trying desperately to be like Apple. (It really can't be denied.) One of my favorite Mac features is the ability to search my entire computer for a file. I can type in "scan" for a photo I've scanned and it brings up every file that has "scan" in its name or in the document itself. On a PC? I can type in the whole freakin' name of the file and it doesn't come up. Nothing. Oh, and the drag and drop features that PC users now love? Apple started that. The widgets? Apple.

Ok, end rant. I really love my Mac. Everyone should own one. Once you go Mac, you never go back! ;-)

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After that, I uploaded some pictures to be printed off at WalMart. (Oh, how I miss Walgreen's photo center...) I'm making a little something for my hubby and I always like to send pictures. Don't worry, you'll see all of it once he gets the package. He's a hit-and-miss reader of my blog and I don't want him to see it before he gets it! 

Anyway, while I was doing some V-Day shopping for my hubby, I came across something slightly disturbing...

Obama. On a Valentine's Day Card. You have got to be kidding me!!!!! When will the obsession with Obama stop? When will they stop selling CRAP with his face on it?! I get that he's the president. I get that everyone who's not a Republican/Conservative thinks he's the best thing since sliced bread. But, come on people. He's NOT a savior. He's not some icon. He's a president... He's got the most powerful and most stressful job in the country. Whether or not I like him, his position grants him a little more respect than being stamped on a freakin' Vday card. And by the way, Obama might have been born in Hawaii, but he wasn't Hawaii's senator and he hasn't lived here in years. Chicago is his home. I can't stand it when people (especially Hawaiians) go ga-ga over him saying he's "from" Hawaii. I was born in England, but that doesn't make me English! Grrrr.

End rant #2. =) I swear this wasn't meant to be a ranting post!

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I have a few new things on my crafts list!! I have two things to make for Joe that I can't tell you about, a laptop cover for Anna and another thing (or two, or three) that I can't tell you about! Anna (aka my SIL, for you newbies) has a birthday coming up and I feel the need to make her a little something. And I promised her while I was in NC that I would make her a laptop cover. I am one busy girl! 

I'd like to make myself some potholders when I get the chance... I need to start sewing my next blankie...  And I can't decide whether or not I want to make myself a wristlet. You know, something small that will hold my ID, iPhone, cards, $$ and keys while I'm at the gym. I hate carrying all that crap in with me. I just don't know that I want to attempt a zipper again. The thought of just buying super cute one from Etsy and not having to deal with a zipper is really appealing. If you can't tell, zippers and I aren't very good friends. Just ask my laptop cover. That's all I'm saying about that one!

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That is pretty much all the news going on in my world... All that I can think of anyway. =P Hubby's day off is supposedly tomorrow so I'm hoping for a really nice, long Skype video chat! We haven't been using the web cam much lately because his connection is so crappy. I hate not being able to see his face and hear his voice. Plus, when we can talk (sans video) it's not usually for very long. The longer he's gone, the harder that part gets. We're officially on the downward slope, but I'm still waiting for the Donut to give me a new phrase. I know we're over the hump, thank you very much! =P I'm trying very hard to stay positive, but it's not easy. I'm praying these next few months fly by, though. I need them to!

Hope your week is off to a great start!!

When Productivity Meets Decorating

Yesterday, I finally got around to doing Pilates. As most of you know, I had a seriously good workout routine when we were living in GA. I did Pilates 3 days a weeks (most of the time) and I ran on the elliptical at our complex's mini gym 2 days a week. Usually. Hey, we all slip every once in a while. Anyway, that was my routine. I must have been doing something right because every time I went back to NC I'd hear every girl's favorite question, "Have you lost weight?" =D But, since the PCS to Hawaii I just haven't gotten back on track. Yes, I know I've been here for almost 6 months (WOW! 6 months! Crazy.). When we got here, we were stuck in lodging for a month. I could have gone to the gym, but I wasn't exactly sure where it was. I walked back and forth to the PX and commissary at least once a week, so it wasn't like I wasn't doing anything. Then we moved into our house... Joe would take the car to work, which left me no way to get the gym other than walking. And doing Pilates on hardwood floors without a mat is completely out of the question. I have very little excuse, but I just never got around to getting back into the habit.

So, I finally did it yesterday. I rolled out my mat, plugged my laptop into the TV and started my video via Netflix. (I *heart* Netflix.) 30 minutes later, I was sure I was going to die on the floor. =P No, it wasn't quite that bad but I was kind of feeling it. Everyone says that exercising gives you more energy. For me, it's not quite the same. I was exhausted yesterday. So much so that I almost talked myself out of going to the store for some things I needed.

Today is a completely different story. I did not work out today, mainly because my legs and arms are SORE. I sat down on the couch this morning this afternoon AND tonight and almost cried. Darn you, Pilates! Seriously, though, I have had so. much. energy. today. It's weird, but so good! I didn't do much this morning, but this afternoon I got to work! I went to the museum and did the usual. Then, I decided to go back to the PX and get the curtains and curtain rod I had spied the day before. While I was there, I figured I'd need to get a drill... But, I decided that it'd be better if I just borrowed one from a friend (thanks, Chantal!). I texted Chantal, checked out, and ran to her house to grab it. I came home, took Jasper on a walk to get the mail, came in, killed bugs (one of which was a millipede!), loaded the dishwasher, took out the trash and started dinner. Yeah.

Then, I decided that while water was boiling for my dinner, I'd go check out the curtain situation. I opened the box for the curtain rod and checked out all the pieces. Then I opened the curtains and threw them in the dryer for some de-wrinkling. Dinner was just about finished (good 'ole Mac & Cheese), so I dealt with that and then sat down to eat. I was planning on watching Glee but it was a rerun. Sad face. Instead, I got a little more work done.

Watch out! ;-)

Side 1: complete!

Look at that handiwork!

Props to my dad for teaching me to do this kind of stuff!

Side 2: Done!

It's up!

I think they look awesome!

I really love the detail on the rod too.

It had me at "hello." ;-)

So, whaddaya think?

And yes, I totally made my bed just for this picture. Don't judge me. =P

I guess since my totally tough workout from yesterday spawned this crazy spurt of energy, I'll do it again tomorrow. =) I'm kind of impressed with myself too. I only had one little snafoo (is that how you spell it?) in using the drill. I used the wrong size bit and completely destroyed one of the screws. *shrugs* Live and learn! Plus, they always give you extras. There were plenty left for me to use! They also gave me another support for the rod... I'm assuming that's to use if you need to support the whole length... It's adjustable up to 66 in. and my window isn't quite that large. Anyway. I also got them for quite a steal! $14 for the rod and $15 for the curtains. 

I'm so glad I finally did this. I've been dying to hang up curtains in the bedroom. I know that no one but me (and you!) will see them, but they make me happy. =) Next, I'll be on the search for curtains for the living room. And a rug for the living room. And maybe a valance for the kitchen window... We'll see. =)

Hope y'all had a good Tuesday too!

All I'm Thinking About

I have a million thoughts running through my head at this moment.

I had a good day. Much better than yesterday.

My heart feels light.

I realized something yesterday that I shouldn't have forgotten.

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Today, I went shopping with Chantal. She needed a buddy to go with her to pick something up and I was happy to join. =) 

As usual when I go shopping, I rarely go with the intention of buying something. You know, just window shopping. Ha. Unfortunately for my bank account, there is an American Eagle at the mall we went to. AE is my weakness. I love just about everything in that stinkin' store. Jeans, shirts, tanks, hoodies, shoes, belts, sunglasses...you name it, I love it. Their jeans are my absolute favorite. 

After looking around for a while and getting disgusted with the ridiculously high prices, I made my way to the clearance rack. I found a few things that I liked, but not so many that I loved and couldn't live without. I went to the next rack - the one with jeans and shorts. I was really looking for some capris, but even in Hawaii AE doesn't carry summer attire year-round. I looked at jeans in what I thought was my size. I found 2 pair that were pretty cute, and I left Chantal to go to the dressing room. 

And I was pleasantly surprised. They fit!!! Last summer, I was a size 12 (ish). Around this time last year, I was about a 10. The pants I'm currently wearing are a 10. But today, I purchased these:

I almost shouted in the dressing room!! =D Chantal and I decided that even though they were a little more expensive than I would have liked, I needed to buy them. They're my celebration jeans! Besides, a girl needs a good pair of jeans in her closet. =)

I would still like to go down one more size, but I'm pretty proud that I made it this far! It's been hard and I know it will continue to be, but I've got to do this for me. 

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When I got home today, I got an unexpected phone call from my husband. I asked why he was calling and he said, "I just thought I'd call to talk. Work is kind of slow." I got a "just because" phone call! =D Those are kinda rare. We usually talk on Skype, which is kind of preferable since I can see him that way, but it was really nice to just chat in the middle of the day. =) Kind of like we got a lunch break of something. Only it wasn't lunch time for either of us. I don't know why I enjoyed that 40 minute phone call so much, but it made my day. I guess it really is the little things. =)

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In my life, I've forgotten many things. From the smallest things to the biggest. Grocery list, cell phone, sunglasses, ID, book, homework, etc, etc. I could go on forever. Recently, though, I forgot a really big thing.

I forgot how much Satan HATES marriage. I forgot that he wants to destroy it and everything good and Godly it stands for. I forgot that he doesn't care about the people involved, except that those people are committing themselves to something that reflects God. I forgot that he wants me to get irritated, frustrated, angry and want to give up. Because if I gave up, he'd win. He'd get what he wants - to destroy. To ruin. To kill. To steal. And it's easier for him to do it while my husband isn't right here in front of me. It's easier for him to do it when we miss each other and there's nothing we can do about it. 

I can't believe I forgot that...even if for a second. When I forget, I'm letting him win. I'm letting him invade my mind and my thoughts. The more I let him in, the closer he gets to winning. And I refuse to let him win. He won't get the best of me, my husband or our marriage. We're stronger than that. No, God is stronger than that. With His help, we'll win. We've already won. We just have to trust God. 

Just to solidify the fact that marriage really is worth fighting for, Paula Kathlyn over at The Patriotic Peacock posted an excerpt from Faith Deployed. You should definitely head over to her blog and check it out. 

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I know this was a super random post, but I wanted to share all of these things with you. Thanks for sticking with my randomness. =)

Happy Weekend!!!

PMS, I Hate You

This morning, my husband told me I looked like a Midol commercial. Yeah. *sigh*

It all started last night. Joe was tired, and after basically throwing me into the bathroom, I got ready for bed. Then, I come out 10ish minutes later...he's asleep. We're not talking the I've-been-dozing-for-a-bit kind of sleeping, but the peace-I'm-out kind of asleep. When we go to bed together, we always cuddle/spoon for a while before we fall asleep. It's our routine, and I love it. Anyway, mister sleepyhead was not waking up to cuddle. =( So, I thought I'd take advantage of the time and read for a bit. I read for maybe thirty minutes before turning out the light and trying to wake him up to roll over...again. This time? I rubbed his back, said his name several times and finally got a "wha..?" I asked him to roll over and he rolled over onto his back and I couldn't get him to say anything to me. He was still completely out. Grrrrr.

Then, I got mad. I mean like ready to scream and throw things mad. 5 seconds later, I'm crying - bawling my freakin' eyes out. Why? Because he fell asleep. I should have gotten to bed sooner. We only have so many nights together left. So, I just cried. I figured since I couldn't wake him up that me crying wasn't going to phase him in the slightest. At one point I thought,  I could be dying and he'd have no idea. Which is probably true. Since he's been in the Army, he's developed some serious sleeping habits, one of which is being able to sleep through just about anything. I cried, and cried, and cried. When I finally laid on my back to try to calm down, he woke up. He put his hand on my leg and asked what was wrong. I tried to explain it to him, but I'm sure he didn't get it. I felt stupid. I got want I wanted, but I still felt completely ridiculous.

And this morning when I attempted to apologize for last night's psychoness? What are you talking about?? Great. So I had to explain my crazy girl emotions again. Awesome. I think he wanted to laugh, but was a little afraid. Ha! So after the emotions, the oh-my-gosh-I'm-gonna-die cramps made their appearance. More awesome. Hence hubby's comment that I looked like a Midol commercial laying on the bed in the fetal position with my pjs on. *sigh*

Why is it that "that time of the month" is always accompanied with her friends - wacko emotions, cramps, bloating, fatigue, and weirdo cravings? Isn't it enough just to have to deal with "Aunt Flo"? I mean, come on!!!!! Reason #1 I'm ticked at Eve for taking that first bite. She cursed us all!!!!! Lol!

On a side note, I've decided that I've seriously fallen off the workout bandwagon. I've got to get back on track before I become some squishy beach bum! Hopefully, I'll be able to get to the gym near our new house and get back to doing Pilates. I really do miss doing Pilates. Running? Not so much. I know that I need to though. My legs and knees have been killing me, which I'm sure is caused by the lack of workouts.

Also, I'm still looking for ideas to add to my "Things to Accomplish While Joe's Gone" list. Any suggestions would be great!!!

Happy Tuesday!
3 more days 'til we move in!! Woohoo!!

Moovin' Monday!

I, along with Casey at The Ever-Changing Life of a Military Wife, am participating in Moovin' March. What does this mean?

1. No fast food
2. 3 workouts a week
3. Join up!

So, how did I do last week? Pretty well actually. I was a little proud of myself. I only resorted to non-homemade food one time last week. This is because my hubby desperately needed some pizza. Ok, ok...I wanted it too. Other than that, the week was pretty good! I did four workouts - yay me! I usually end up only doing 3, but I'm trying to be better. I did Fat-Burning Pilates Monday and Wednesday. I ran for 30 minutes on the elliptical on Tuesday, and did "slow" Crunch Pick Your Spot Pilates on Thursday. So, I only ran once...but it's really hard for me to want to leave the house when it's raining. I have serious issues with the rain. =)

This week is probably not going to be good. I have a feeling I'm not going to be working out much this week while I'm gone. I'm taking 2 sets of workout clothes with me, along with my trusty tennis shoes. Maybe we'll at least take a walk or something. It's supposed to be pretty nice this week. I'm taking my laptop with me, so until Thursday, I will be broadcasting to you posting from there. =) I can't wait for them to get here! Anna and my little niece should be here in an hour or so! =D

 Happy Monday! Hope y'all have a great week!

Throwing in the Towel?

I seriously considered this as I was running my behind off on the elliptical this morning. I don't like feeling like my heart is going to beat out of my chest or the burn in my lungs. But, dang it, I like the results I get when I do run! I think the combination of running and doing Pilates has been great the last two-ish months. Because here are the results, ladies (and gents???):

This was me in July '09 - my birthday party. 

*sigh* I was not the hottest ever...

So, today while I was running and thinking of getting my butt of that elliptical and giving up...this is what I saw.

 I have my cute toosh back! =D It disappeared in those size 12 pants...and now, it has returned! {And no, I did not stop running to take this pic.}

Look at that! Ok, so I'm a little vain. But, I'm proud.

See? Those size 12's are baggy! =D

So, I don't think I'll be throwing in the towel...no matter how much I want to quit. I miss my size 2 body. But, I've decided that it's probably not going to come back and I'm ok with that. I'll 'settle' for a 6. =) Oh, and for the record, the "before" picture was one of very few. I never noticed that I hid from the camera because I was ashamed of my size. No more! =)

Before I wrap up this little post solely focused on me and my fat loss, I have news of a giveaway! If you are anything like me, I'm always entering giveaways praying that I'll win something. =) I rarely do, but it's fun anyway! I found a little giveaway at the Lady Bloggers Society. This is for all ladies who want to meet other ladies...and for giveaways...and meet & greets..that sorta thing. I'm seriously excited about joining! I think y'all should head on over there and sign up to win a fabulous bag {come on, who doesn't want a new bag?!} and a few other awesome things! And when they ask who sent you, tell them Sarah at GI Joe's Wife! Please, and thank you!

Hope you had a fantastic Tuesday and hopefully your Wednesday will be just as nice!

Moovin' Moday!

So,  I've been seeing this on several blogs and thought I would join in!

Casey over at The Ever-Changing Life is hosting this little get together to get fit! I found her blog today and am officially a follower. =) Get Moovin' March is a way to shake off those winter blahs...not to mention the extra pounds we might have put on while stuffing our faces with family and friends this winter. So, what are the rules, you ask?

1. Say no to fast food!
2. Say yes to exercise (3x a week or more).
3. Grab a button (from Casey's blog) and check in on Mondays!

Easy right? Maybe, maybe not. I am a complete sucker for fast food. Especially when I seriously don't feel like cooking. Which, sadly to say, happens often. So, I'm going to do my best to stay away from fast food and continue working out at least 3x a week. I've been doing well with my working out routine so far {I did my cardio Pilates today}, so we'll see how I can do with saying no to fast food! It's gonna be tough, I'm sure. I know I'm just joining up, but I'm excited to see where it goes!

 I don't know about you, but the weather here has been absolutely gorgeous today. We supposedly got up to 72 today, with no clouds in sight! I've had the windows open all afternoon while I've been picking up the house. I've still got some laundry to fold, but we won't talk about that. ;-) I was really disappointed that Ellen was a rerun today. *sigh* Is it terrible that I look forward to 3:00 everyday because Ellen comes on? Uh oh. I've become one of those stay at home wives! Noooo!!! Lol, just kidding! At least i don't watch soap operas, right? =) I used to, don't get me wrong...but they're way overrated.

Happy Monday, y'all! Get Moovin'! =)

Gym? What Gym?

Oh, you mean that tiny one that is like a 3 minute walk away? Yeah...not happening today.

So, remember that knee and ankle pain from yesterday? Well, it's gone. And in its place I have serious muscle pain - my left calf and then my right leg, right under my butt. Extremely weird. I'm going to blame the crappy excuse for an elliptical that my apt. complex has in its mini-gym. Sheesh. So much for that!

Instead of working out today, I'll most likely be working on a scrapbook that I began for this little one before she was born.
This is my absolutely adorable one month old niece! =D I'm totally in love with all of her cuteness! I'm extremely thankful that my sister in law sends me pictures!! Anyway, I made a scrapbook for her WAY before she was born so that Anna (my sis in law) could put in pictures later and use it as a very cute baby book. =) While I was in NC for post-Christmas festivities, Anna informed me that she didn't feel capable of putting pictures in the book. =P Apparently, she thinks it takes tons of creative ability to be able to do this. It doesn't, but ok. So, she ordered pics from Walgreens and sent them to the one down the street from me. Guess what I'm going to be doing today?! That's right, scrapbooking!!! =D I'm sooo excited! Never mind that I should be unpacking the 30 boxes in the "office" or cleaning the bedroom or working out or anything like that...I will be scrapbooking today!!! =D