The D Word

It's a word that all of us milspouses know and use. It's a word all most of us have come to hate. We hate it because it means that our dearest loved ones are going to be taken away from us for a long period of time. It means they will miss birthdays, anniversaries, Thanksgivings, Christmases and everything in between. It means that our husbands [and wives] are going to be put in harm's way.

Deployment.

Today at the newcomer's luncheon thingy, we learned that Joe will be deployed. Sooner than I'd hoped. I feel like I've just gotten my husband back and now they're taking him from me again. I know that I'm luckier than most because my husband has a relatively safe job, as jobs in the Army go. It still hurts, and I'm still kind of in shock. Yes, I knew getting into this that he would be deployed and I would be alone. We expected he would be deployed from here because they have such a high deployable rate. Still, I hoped beyond hope that it wouldn't happen. 


But, it has. I wanted more time here in paradise with him. I wanted to make friends, find a church, and get accustomed to the area. While we still have time left together, it's not as much as I wanted. Of course, I can't give you any specific details but I felt the need to tell all of you about it. Most [if not all] of you have experienced this before, while I have not. I fear the unknown. I fear being alone...even though I've been alone before. I fear for his life. I fear...well, everything. Right now, what I need most are your prayers. I know that - as Melissa has told and will continue to tell me - God's got this, but it's hard not to let those "what if" thoughts enter my mind. 


So, I come to you as a milspouse sister, seeking your advice, thoughts, encouragement and prayers. I'm a newbie, so feel free to "write a book" and tell me what's worked for you. I only ask that you be nice in your advice (haha, that rhymes! sorry...). Criticism and harsh words are not what I need right now. It's been my experience that some people will tell me to "get over it". I'm new at this, and I'm going to need someone's help! 


Thanks in advance!


Happy Grey's Anatomy Day Almost Weekend Day Thursday!
Hope yours was/is better than mine!